Loss…Lost…Losing

As I prepare to travel to attend my granny’s funeral, I feel again the loss of Him so acutely today.

I don’t know how I will stand at her grave  and mourn her passing, and not also mourn Him. I am not one to show my tears to others… How will I contain what is in my heart?

I realised today… it is not the feelings of loss… the emotions of loss that I find difficult to manage at times… it is the reality of an empty chair and a silent voice.